This, sadly, is your life now, from then to eternity. It’s time to make the best of a bad situation. No one wants this loss to have happened but this was the hand of the cards you and many others have been dealt. The pain will never expire. It doesn’t start off huge and and taper into a smaller, easier to cope with measure. It is more like a swirling storm that increases and shrinks, often within hours. One moment you can look forward to your life to come but in the next minute you are on your behind looking back at what you had and never will again.
Your missing child will be with you eternally. They will always be in your heart. They will never leave you. All you have to do is close your eyes and they will be in front of you. Luckily the pain that goes along with the loss is not there for eternity. The pain will pass and you will be able to breathe deeply again. There are some days the pain will resurface but it won’t last for long.
Milo is mine and always will be. He was always mine, when he was alive too. He was my boy and I hated that I needed to share him. I would always hold him as close as I could and I never wanted to put him down or leave him.
“When you lose a child, you lose an entire lifetime of dreams, hope, wishes and plans. ”